One negative thing a week?

So, I've been very positive lately, and not having any unhappy times, I've stopped flowing negativity from invading my focuse, but sometmes you have to let negativity flow out of you. Not keep it bottled inside.

I texted him just saying that I miss him, I found that apartment with him and going back there without him for the first time, made me think of the day we broke up, that was the last place we had been at, right after breakfast and the breakfast pic. I miss him, I do. I've been trying to not admit it out loud, and it's been helping getting through the day.

I wonder if he misses me too, if he doesn't it will break my heart, if he does then I'll want to tell him you're an idiot then. Maybe I pushed the subject too soon, but I just don't know how to do these, these things called relationships, I don't know how to share my life with someone else, and not try to push them away. Too bad he failed the test and didn't grab on to me.

Meh, it was better to find out now, then later on.

So ya that was something negative I did, texting him was not the positive thing to do, because his texts are vague and I don't think he cares about me anymore, at least not like before, the little he did care.

Possitive
- Paid my deposit on the apartment in full
- Worked on my day off, because they needed over time
- Got clothes bins
- Got laundry soap
- Have money set aside for said laundry

Negative
- Tried to see what was going on


Not bad at the end of the day I did more positive things then negative, it's a good balance and I'm proud of myself.